Living With Fibromyalgia

After 5 years of living with fibromyalgia, I have to the realization that yes, I am sick and I can only take life one day at a time. I can elliminate certain foods out of my diet to help elleviate some of the pain. I can take medication to soften the pain but what I have realized that now matter how much I adjust these things, if I don’t take ownership of this thing in my body and keep denying myself that it is real, then I will never be sane.

I also have to remove the stress out of my life. I tend to internalize everyone around me, so if they are stressed and having a bad day, then I feel that stress in my body. If someone is crying, then I am crying inside which then brings me pain. I think that the biggest stress in my life was living with a man for 13 years who was bipolar. I never knew what direction I was heading from day to day. I never knew what word would send off a reaction of yells. My body then started to respond to these temper tantrums and out came my fibromyalgia. Not only was I in pain emotionally but now my body. So, I became lost. I sought out the Lord, crying for help, healing, direction. The only direction he gave to me was to leave. So I did and so did the pain. I found myself and love again. I met a wonderful man who showed me what true love was about. I thought my life had been returned. I guess I started taking credit for myself instead of giving it to God.
I was given an amazing opportunity for my career. Little did I know that I was going to be walking into another box full of pain. My new supervisor, I believe is bipolar. I see similar reactions and behaviors that I did from my exhusband. What I had learned how to deal with that type of person helped me deal with my supervisor for almost a year, however 3 months into the new position, the pain returned.

I am now back onto medications, taking each day as praise if I can walk out of the office with a smile. I thank God every night for his many blessings and I know that one day, I will walk in glory and without any pain at all.

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